Keith Olbermann Rips Pat Robertson New Asshole

*A special thanks to @nathandavishall for pointing out this awesome video!

Keith Olbermann rips Pat Robertson (and Rush Limbaugh) a new asshole.
And holy shit is it awesome…

In case you’ve been under a rock for the past few days, this is what prompted this response:

It’s about time Pat Robertson was reprimanded for his stupid, insane comments. Truly, how terrible of a person do you have to be to say things like that? Ugh.


“Titan of Teen Angst, Director John Hughes, Dies at 59”

John HughesFrom NY Daily News:

John Hughes, whose coming-of-age movies captured an American teenage generation between Elvis Presley and Britney Spears, died Thursday of an apparent heart attack while walking on a Manhattan street.

He was 59.

Hughes, a Michigan native who lived in Illinois, was visiting his family in New York, according to a spokeswoman.

Matthew Broderick, who starred in Hughes’ 1986 hit “Ferris Bueller’s Day Off,” said he was “truly shocked and saddened by the news about my old friend. … He was a wonderful, very talented guy and my heart goes out to his family.”

Hughes’ 1984 film “Sixteen Candles” established him as the signature teen filmmaker of that decade, and made “John Hughes movie” into shorthand for a sometimes agonizing but ultimately upbeat look at teenage years.

“Sixteen Candles” made a star of Molly Ringwald, and he directed her again in two subsequent films, “The Breakfast Club” and “Pretty in Pink.”

Ringwald said she was “stunned and incredibly sad” to hear about Hughes’ death.

“He will be missed – by me and by everyone that he has touched,” she said in a statement on

Some of the actors in his films, including Ringwald, Andrew McCarthy, Anthony Michael Hall, Ally Sheedy and Judd Nelson, became known as the Brat Pack.

In contrast to raucous 1980s teen comedies like the “Porky’s” series, Hughes films were sweet, often sentimental. Their heroes and heroines, who started out feeling like misfits, were rewarded for the basic virtues of good hearts and decency.

He kept them from being simply throwbacks to some romanticized earlier age by effective use of realistic teen dialogue.

Hughes was working as an ad copywriter when he broke into showbiz by selling jokes to comedians like Rodney Dangerfield. He went to work for the National Lampoon and scored his breakthrough by writing the screenplay for the 1983 hit film “National Lampoon’s Vacation,” which starred Chevy Chase.

That film showcased Hughes’ ear for droll absurdity. When the dimwitted brother-in-law of Chase’s character is grilling dinner and says he’s using Hamburger Helper, Chase mutters that yeah, that’s good with a little meat. The brother-in-law says, “You add meat?”

His high school movies centered on the girl who doesn’t feel pretty enough, the guy who feels like an idiot, the arrogant bullies who pick on them, and the awkward moments they endure before it all works out.

Hughes’ movies also featured lavish and smart use of music.

Hughes did a few more teen movies, including “Weird Science” and “Ferris Bueller’s Day Off,” then scored with “Planes, Trains and Automobiles” in 1987 and even bigger with “Home Alone” in 1990.

After that, however, he headed for the exits. The last film he directed was “Curly Sue,” in 1991. In 1994, he retired from both the film business and the public eye – which he had never enjoyed.

His last public project was writing an independent film, “Reach the Rock,” in 1999.

Hughes is survived by his wife, Nancy, to whom he was married for 39 years, and two sons, James and John.

Wow, it really is a terrible year for celebrities. I think I speak for all the brains, the athletes, the basket cases, the princesses, and the criminals when I say that he’ll be sorely missed.

Obama A Socialist? Really?

Obama JokerFrom Greg Gutfield, host of Red Eye:

Posters of President Obama made up as Heath Ledger’s Joker with “socialism” written below have been showing up around Los Angeles and it’s being greeted with outrage-y outrage from the typically outraged.

Some are calling it racist, others are calling it “dangerous”; I’m calling it: “Steve” — which is Greg for “boring.”

The Web site Newsbusters points out that — after all — that former President Bush had been portrayed as everything from Dracula to the Joker to worse: a Texan! And, while media hacks point out that criticizing Obama is unfair because he’s only been on the job for six months, that’s bat poop.

Hatred for Bush began the moment he took office and Sarah Palin was only around for a few weeks before lefties were wearing T-shirts with her face and a vulgar word beneath it (hint: It rhymes with bunt.)

And besides, this Obama Joker face only elevates his hip persona and it’s honest. Seriously, we live in a culture where anti-heroes have replaced heroes — hence Ledger’s joker is far cooler than Bale’s Batman. (At least the Joker didn’t yell at his mom at the premiere.)

The Joker scoffed at tradition, reveled in post-modern humor and, more importantly, was played by a dead guy. You can’t get any cooler than that, even if, like me, you do Pilates wearing only body paint.

Finally, as so many Obama-lovers point out, our president is more than a president, he’s a pop culture icon — and you can’t go more than five feet without seeing a shirt, a button or a jock strap with his face plastered on it

At least with these new posters, the media has a message.

Another cultural pop-shot on Obama. If this poster was designed to be a smear campaign for Obama, I would have to say EPIC FAIL. Reportedly, Obama had one of the highest percentages of young voters…ever.

Excuse me? Was anyone awake for Halloween last year? Did you not see millions upon million of people 13-35 dressed as Heath Ledger’s Joker?

Really, I could get into the rant again about how I’m a huge fucking socialist, but why bother when you can read it here.

Honestly, I think it’s pretty sweet. I wish people were able to have a Socialist government without spazzing the fuck out. And did you ever notice that it’s always the well-to-do who bitch about Socialism? The trickle down theory has obviously worked SO WELL, let’s keep it up! Yeah, it’s worked so well, for the already rich.

You know, even with this whole health care situation at the moment…Adam and I were sitting on the couch watching the news one morning last week and there were talking about it. If it meant that every American would have health insurance, I would gladly take a percentage out of my paycheck. If taking money out of my paycheck gives health insurance to people like say, my husband, or the vast majority of my family who does not have health insurance, I’d jump on it in a heartbeat. I live paycheck to paycheck (if my paycheck lasts that long). Think about it, take ONE percent of everyone’s paycheck and with all the money grubbing-greedy bastards out there, that would end up being a lot. Like, a whole lot. If it means my husband has health insurance, PLEASE take that one percent. I’ll tell you what, I’LL take the one percent and MAIL IT TO YOU, okay? I’ll even pay for the envelope and postage!

People are now bitching about the Clunkers fo Cash For Cars program, saying that we’re just dumping our debt onto the next generation. WTF do they think has been happening for the last hundreds of years? If the goverment was so great before, can you tell me why I have no fucking Social Security?

Jesus. Every president will be worse than the last to someone. Every. Single. Time. What ever happened to working together? What I see is a lot of people complaining and not one single person proposing other options.

It’s easy to tell someone when they’re wrong, but that doesn’t make you right!

And then, there’s this. There should just be an audio clip with children shouting, “HOORAY CAPITALISM!”.

American Reporters Freed From North Korea /slash/ Current TV

As I’m sure you all know, American reporters Laura Ling and Euna Lee have been released from captivity in North Korea and have returned home. From BBC News:

US journalists Laura Ling and Euna Lee told their families they had no intention of entering North Korea when they went to the border with China to report on the plight of North Korean refugees.

Laura Ling (R) and Euna Lee (R) at Pyongyang airport - 5 August 2009

Laura Ling (L) and Euna Lee (R) looked very relieved to be leaving Pyongyang

But on 17 March they were seized by North Korean border guards and accused of illegally entering the country to carry out “hostile acts”.

After more than four months in captivity, a high-level visit from former US President Bill Clinton secured their release.

Euna Lee and Laura Ling are journalists with San Francisco-based Current TV, a media venture co-founded by former US Vice-President Al Gore.

Ms Ling, a 32-year-old California native, has experience covering the conflict in Sri Lanka, Brazilian slave labour and Iran’s underground youth culture.

Ms Lee, a 36-year-old South Korean-born US citizen, is an editor with Current TV.

From the time they were captured, the two women’s families urged the authorities in Pyongyang to release them, saying they were worried about the “mental state and wellbeing” of the pair.

In a joint statement, the families said Ms Ling suffered from an ulcer and that Ms Lee had a four-year-old daughter who was “displaying signs of anguish”.

“We believe that the three months they have already spent under arrest with little communication with their families is long enough,” the statement said.

While I am trying to remain hopeful, each day becomes harder and harder to bear. I am so lonely and scared
Laura Ling, in a letter home

Ms Ling’s husband, Iain Clayton, appeared on US TV networks and read out a letter she had written from captivity: “While I am trying to remain hopeful, each day becomes harder and harder to bear. I am so lonely and scared.”

Their hopes appeared dashed in early June when a quick trial saw them convicted and sentenced to 12 years of “reform through labour”.

‘Smear campaign’

Initially, there were denials from the American side that they had gone into North Korea – and both South Korean media and diplomatic sources said the North’s guards had crossed into Chinese territory to arrest them.

But a few days after their trial, the North’s state media said the two had admitted entering the North and accepted their sentences.

Official news agency KCNA also said they had admitted getting footage for a “smear campaign” about North Korea’s human rights.

Their sentences could potentially have seen the two women working in a prison labour camp in North Korea’s notoriously brutal penal system.

It seems, however, that the two were well-treated and kept in a Pyongyang guest house, with access to consular services provided by Sweden’s embassy in North Korea and allowed to make several phone calls to their families in the US.

Sino-Korea Friendship Bridge over the Yanu River in Dandong

North Korea and China share an 880 mile (1,400 km) border

It was during these phone calls that the pair said Pyongyang had suggested that a visit by Mr Clinton could secure their freedom, US officials have said.

Analysts say they were probably being kept as bargaining chips to wrest concessions or direct talks with the United States.

But the US has said Mr Clinton did not discuss any other issues other than the women’s freedom during his trip to Pyongyang.

The reporters’ families, and officials in Washington, had urged that Pyongyang keep this case separate from the nuclear issue bedevilling relations between North Korea and the US.

Washington insists it will only hold bilateral talks on the nuclear stalemate with Pyongyang under the auspices of the stalled six-party negotiations – which also include South Korea, Japan, China and Russia.

Tensions in the region have soared in recent months, as North Korea has conducted a nuclear test and fired a long-range missile, drawing widespread international condemnation.

Out of all of this, what totally blows my mind? Al Gore is the chairman of Current TV!? I fucking love Current. Not that I dislike Al Gore (except for the saving the polar bears part. Seriously, fuck polar bears), but now I just feel weird. How did I not know this before? Well, I guess they’re not going to cut into a show and just be like, “HEY! Al Gore owns us”!

Current is still freaking awesome though. In case you’ve missed the boat on that one, Current TV is an alternative news channel with a great deal of viewer created content. Everything from news to podcasts to commercials…they do it all.

Check it out sometime. It’s a nice change of pace from the regular news.

Current TV
BBC News Story

The Supposed Blog of George Sodini

In case the link doesn’t come back up, here’s a supposed copy of Sodini’s blog:

George Sodini
Age 48.
DOB 9/30/1960
DOD 8/4/2009
5-10, 155 lbs.
Never married.
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania USA

Why do this?? To young girls? Just read below. I kept a running log that includes my thoughts and actions, after I saw this project was going to drag on.

November 5, 2008:
Planned to do this in the summer but figure to stick around to see the election outcome. This particular one got so much attention and I was just curious. Not like I give a flying fcuk who won, since this exit plan was already planned. Good luck to Obama! He will be successful. The liberal media LOVES him. Amerika has chosen The Black Man. Good! In light of this I got ideas outside of Obama’s plans for the economy and such. Here it is: Every black man should get a young white girl hoe to hone up on. Kinda a reverse indentured servitude thing. Long ago, many a older white male landowner had a young Negro wench girl for his desires. Bout’ time tables are turned on that shit. Besides, dem young white hoez dig da bruthrs! LOL. More so than they dig the white dudes! Every daddy know when he sends his little girl to college, she be bangin a bruthr real good. I saw it. “Not my little girl”, daddy says! (Yeah right!!) Black dudes have thier choice of best white hoez. You do the math, there are enough young white so all the brothers can each have one for 3 or 6 months or so.

December 22, 2008:
Time is moving along. Planned to have this done already. I will just keep a running log here as time passes. Many of the young girls here look so beautiful as to not be human, very edible. After joining this gym, started lifting weights and like it. Much info about weight programs, diet etc on the web. Or anything for that matter. Instead of TV I can Google for hours to relax. TV and most movies are dull.

December 24, 2008:
Moving into Christmas again. No girlfriend since 1984, last Christmas with Pam was in 1983. Who knows why. I am not ugly or too weird. No sex since July 1990 either (I was 29). No shit! Over eighteen years ago. And did it maybe only 50-75 times in my life. Getting to think that a woman now would just, uh, get in the way of things. Isolated. I have extra money and enjoy traveling, too, wtih my 25-30 days of vacation. LA was the best! But going alone is not too fun. Invited to a party on Christmas day tomorrow. Seems about 15-25 people will actually show. I like her parties; I can meet new people and talk. Got the next 8 days off. I should have exit plan done and practiced by then. I know nothing will change, no matter how hard I try or what goals I set.

December 28, 2008:
Glad I stayed around. All these days off are great. I will shoot for Tuesday, January 6, 2009, at maybe 8:15. I have list of to-do items to make.

December 29, 2008:
Just got back from tanning, been doing this for a while. No gym today, my elbow is sore again. I actually look good. I dress good, am clean-shaven, bathe, touch of cologne – yet 30 million women rejected me – over an 18 or 25-year period. That is how I see it. Thirty million is my rough guesstimate of how many desirable single women there are. A man needs a woman for confidence. He gets a boost on the job, career, with other men, and everywhere else when he knows inside he has someone to spend the night with and who is also a friend. This type of life I see is a closed world with me specifically and totally excluded. Every other guy does this successfully to a degree. Flying solo for many years is a destroyer. Yet many people say I am easy to get along with, etc. Looking back, I owe nothing to desirable females who ask for anything, except for basic courtesy – usually. Looking back over everything, what bothers me most is the inability to work towards whatever change I choose.

December 30, 2008:
While driving I radio surfed to a talk show. The caller was a 30ish black man who was describing the despair in certain black communities. According to him, life is cheap there because you are going to die anyway when you get old. It is the quality of life that is important, he said. If you know the past 40 years were crappy, why live another 30 crappy years then die? His point was they engage in dangerous behavior which tends to shorten the lifespans, to die now and avoid the next 30 crappy years, using my example. The host got sarcastic and ended the call instead of trying understanding his point. Agreement wasn’t necesary. I put music back on. But it was an interesting, and useful point for me to hear.

December 31, 2008:
My anger and rage is largely gone since I began lifting weights. Lifting drains me but I still have energy. Somebody else suggested running but that did not help me. I guess strenuous exercise is necesary for a man. So I just learned that now at 48. Maybe 30 years later than I would have liked. My dad never (not once) talked to me or asked about my life’s details and tell me what he knew. He was just a useless sperm doner. Don’t know why, find it fun talking to young kids when I visit someone. Brother was actually counter-productive and would try to embarase me or discourage my efferts when persuing things, esp girls early on (teen years). Useless bully. Result is I am learning basics by trial and error in my 40s, followed by discuragement. Seems odd, but thats true. Writing all this is helping me justify my plan and to see the futility of continuing. Too embarassed to tell anyone this, at almost 50 one is expected to just know these things.
I hope it doesn’t snow on Tuesday. Just thought of that. The crowd will be thin so I would postpone. Shit!

Now that I am on the topic of family and people I know, I might as well make a summary of sorts to show where things stand. This is New Years Eve I have time, no date tonight of course, so:

Honorable mention:

Tetelestai Church in Pittsburgh, PA – “Be Ye Holy, even as I have been Ye holy! Thus saith the lord thy God!”, as pastor Rick Knapp would proclaim. Holy shit, religion is a waste. But this guy teaches (and convinced me) you can commit mass murder then still go to heaven. Ask him. Call him at (724) 325-2655. If no answer there, he should still live at 439 9th Street, Oakmont, PA 15139. In any case, guilt and fear kept me there 13 long years until Nov 2006. I think his crap did the most damage. Their web site:

Mum – The Central Boss. 717 Highview Road, Pgh PA 15234. Don’t piss her off or she will be mad and vindictive for years. She actually thinks she’s normal. Very dominant. Her way and only her way with no flexibility toward everyone in the household. A power and control thing. People outside the immediate family like her. Why are people vicious with their closest ones? She is the Boss above all other Bosses.

Michael Sodini – A Boss, my brother (Mike Sodini) 216 Horseshoe Dr, Mars PA – Always the big bully, twice the size of most others. When he bullied or harassed someone, it was the other person who “deserved it”. It was always about him. Way to self absorbed, too. Still is. Used to like to embarrass guys in front of their girlfriends. Lots of other shit. Kind of guy you actually loved to hate. The biggest, most self-centered jagoff I know. He took those bullying “skills” into the business world and is doing good financially. He is a big wheel only in his mind. Most people can see thru all his manipulation. He calls only when he wants something.

Sherry – sister – More of a victim than anything. Copes by exercising much control over her adult children. We used to be close until her control of L & D caused a conflict. Never the same after.

David – neph, sis’s son (girlfriend Mallory Squires). Good young guy, though.

Lisa – niece, sis’s daught. Attractive, smart, emotional – all good YW qualities.

Idiots:Andy Pulkowski – I have been in barrooms and church groups. The worst people by far are the religious types. Especially a right-wing, stiff-faced fundie like Andy. A condescending, demeaning, passive-aggresive person. Frigid, rigid, linear and totally inflexible. Being a very serious person, he cannot hide his frown-lined face. He better not try to smile; lest his face might crack. I knew children of parents who grew up in strict religious homes. Religion has a certain stink to it of guilt, shame, fear, and that moral standard that always contradicts the natural tendencies and desires of a person. Therin lies the conflict. Young person cannot experiment with things to decide on their own and establish their own parameters. So they tend to cut loose and really rebel much worse than the average young person. Ma and Pa never know what goes on. They easily BS their parents because they want to believe their little one is an angel. Andy has a young daughter Bethany Pulkowski away at college, High Point University. I saw her picture on his desk. She’s your basic, attractive, young girl. Please reread my entry made on Nov 5th. That’s only one thing she can do. You Andy types out there need to further strengthen your strict resolve and do more of the same thing! Because those girls were great when I recall my college years! She is someone’s (or many guy’s) little hoe now, I am sure.

Another point about andy. How can someone be cold, vicious, sarcastic and generally nasty ALL THE TIME and then make the claim about their church life and how good they are? Total hypocritical idiots.

That’s all for now. That felt good.

Let’s continue…

January 5, 2009:
Was at the gym to lift. Very crowded. Tomorrow should be good. There is a woman there that gives me a certain look every time I am there. I decided to walk over and make a comment about the crowds but she left when I finished the exercise. Better that I do not get sidetracked from tomorrow’s plan anyways. Life is just playing games. One or two dates with her, then the end. No matter how many changes I try to make, things stay the same. Every evening I am alone, and then go to bed alone. Young women were brutal when I was younger, now they aren’t as much, probably because they just see me just as another old man.
I see twenty something couples everywhere. I see a twenty something guy with a nice twentyish young women. I think those years slipped right by for me. Why should I continue another 20+ years alone? I will just work, come home, eat, maybe do something, then go to bed (alone) for the next day of the same thing. This is the Auschwitz Syndrome, to be in serious pain so long one thinks it is normal. I cannot wait for tomorrow!

January 6, 2009:
I can do this. Leaving work today, I felt like a zombie – just going thru the motions. Get on the bus, get the car, drive home…..My mind is screwed up anymore, I can’t concentrate at work or think at all.
This log is not detailed. It is only for confidence to do this. The future holds even less than what I have today.
It is 6:40pm, about hour and a half to go. God have mercy. I wish life could be better for all and the crazy world can somehow run smoother. I wish I had answers. Bye.

It is 8:45PM: I chickened out! Shit! I brought the loaded guns, everything. Hell!

April 24, 2009:
Early last month, we had our second general layoff. I survived. First one was in November. When I began 10 years ago, that used to be a nice place to work. I understand the need to reduce staff when times sour, but this is out of proportion to the economic problems at this time. The economy is shrinking by about 4-5%. They decided not to pay Christmas bonus – for staff that amounts to about 8% of yearly pay. Well, OK. Plus no yearly “merit” raise, another 3.5%. That totals to about 11% cut. Plus two layoffs of 5% staff in each case. Do the math. I know this firm is using this downturn as an excuse to take advanage of a bad situation and kill jobs UNNECESSARILY. The second layoff people who actually did work were let go. We all need to pick up the slack so the company can cut beyond what is necesary. Wasn’t going to mention it, because of all this shit, it is K&L Gates, the large law firm headquartered here in Pittsburgh. Just call it K&L Gates Corporation. Most people there are OK and I would never have a shoot ‘em up there. They paid me for 10 years, so far!

I predict I won’t survive the next layoff. That is when there is no point to continue. RIght now, life is bearable and I can get by indefinitely. Something bad must happen. The paycheck is all I have left. The future holds nothing for me. Twenty five years of nothing fun. I never even spent one weekend with a girl in my life, even at my own place. Also unlikely to find another similar job. I guess then is when I take care of things. I don’t have kids, close friends or anything. Just me here. If you have nothing, you have nothing to lose.

I enjoy writing these entries, I have no plans to go back and edit or even read most stuff already written. If you get bored, just click that “x” at the top, right corner of your browser. Bye.

May 4, 2009:
I was so eager to do this last year. The big problem on my mind now is that my job will end soon. One project is being transistioned to another. The other one I am solely responsible, but is being fast tracked to production. I estimate maybe a month. I am not ready for the job market. I am ok what I do, a .NET software developer. Not at the top of the class, but I do a good job. I survived two general layoffs and other little layoffs they are having but keeping quiet about. I hear things.

The problem is I feel too good now to do this but too bad to enjoy life. I know I will never enjoy life. This is an over 30 year trend. Some people are happy, some are miserable. It is difficult to live almost continuously feeling an undercurrent of fear, worry, discontentment and helplessness. I can talk and joke around and sound happy but under it all is something different that seems unchangable and a permanent part of my being. I need to realize the details of what I never accomplished in life and to be convinced the future is merely a continuation of the past – WHICH IT ALWAYS has been. I am making a list of items that will provide motivation to do the exit plan, it won’t be published. I always had hope that maybe things will improve especially if I make big attempts to change my life. I made many big changes in the past two years but everything is still the same. Life is over. Even though I look good, dress well, well groomed – nails, teeth, hair, etc. Who knows.

What is it like to be dead? I always think I am forgetting something, that’s one reason I postponed. Similar to when you leave to get in your car to go somewhere – you hesitate with a thought: “what am I forgetting?”. In this case, I cannot make a return trip!

I like to write and talk. Ironic because I haven’t met anybody recently (past 30 years) who I want to be close friends with OR who want to be close friends with me. I was always open to suggestions to what I am doing wrong, no brother or father (mine are useless) or close friend to nudge me and give it bluntly yet tactfully wtf I am doing wrong. A personal coach or someone who knows what he is doing would be perfect. Money is highly secondary for a solution.

May 5, 2009:
To pull the exit plan off, it popped into my mind to just use some booze. I want to do this before I get laid off, for reasons not worth mentioning but don’t seem to have the balls. After the gym, I stopped at Shop N Save and got a fifth of vodka and a small bottle of Jack Daniels. I haven’t had a drink since September 1, 1988, just over 20 years. It doesn’t matter now, I need to use it to take the edge off of carrying out the exit plan. I will be taking some every now and then to get used to it and see if the alcohol effects will embolden me. Weed would be fun to try again. I don’t know who has any. Life is over, who cares? I just need to use common sense, can’t drink and drive, etc. This idea just hit me at a point in time and I immediately acted on it. Same thing happened when I decided to go back to Pitt full time, first day was Monday, May 8, 1989, and to buy the house that closed on Friday, September 30, 1996, to name two examples I remember so well.

The list idea yesterday is working. I carry it in my wallet and add to it. I am feeling to good to do carry this out, but too bad to enjoy ANYTHING. My life’s dilema.

May 6, 2009:
I started the JD. About one ounce with some tea to get me started. No big deal.

May 7, 2009:
Went to the gym and did mostly cardio. My heart rate was 117 just from walking on the treadmill at 3.4. This should be done a few times a week for maybe 15 mins or so to keep the heart active. I sprinted a few times to push the limits.

May 18, 2009:
I actually had a date today. It was with a woman I met on the bus in March. We got together at Two PPG Place for lunch. The last date for me was May 1, 2008. Women just don’t like me. There are 30 million desirable women in the US (my estimate) and I cannot find one. Not one of them finds me attractive. I am looking at The List I made from my May 4th idea. I forgot about that for several days. That tells me where I stand. These problems have gotten worse over a 30 year period. I need to expect nothing from me or other people. All through the years I thought we had the ability to change ourselves – I guess that is incorrect. Looking at The List makes me realize how TOTALLY ALONE, a deeper word is ISOLATED, I am from all else.
I no longer have any expectations of myself. I have no options because I cannot work toward and achieve even the smallest goals. That is, ABOVE ALL, what bothers me the most. Not to be able to work towards what I want in my life. I believe I am deserve that. I read recently it is called “self efficacy”, but who knows. Is that more psychobable?

May 25, 2009:
I was invited to a picnic, and I went. An older woman there, out of the blue, asked if I liked high school. Then quickly asked if I was picked on very much. Intersting why she would ask that. But, thanks, I already know what the problem is, but a solution eludes me.

May 29, 2009:
Another lonely Friday night, I’m done. This is too much.

June 2, 2009:
Some people I was talking with believed I date a lot and get around with women. They think this because I showed an email I got from a hot woman to the department gossip, but it didn’t work out. All this is funny. Actually, I haven’t had sex since I was 29 years old, 19 years ago. That’s true.

June 5, 2009:
I was reading several posts on different forums and it seems many teenage girls have sex frequently. One 16 year old does it usually three times a day with her boyfriend. So, err, after a month of that, this little hoe has had more sex than ME in my LIFE, and I am 48. One more reason. Thanks for nada, bitches! Bye.

July 4, 2009:
Wow, already late evening. I stayed in all day. Can’t believe there was NOTHING to do today. No parties or picnics. WTF. No need to leave now.

July 20, 2009:
Been a long time since last write. Everything still sucks. But I got a promotion and a raise, even in this shitty Obama ecomomy. No more grunt programming. Go figure! New boss is great. He tactfully says when you did something wrong or complements on good things. Never confused with him. But that is NOT what I want in life. I guess some of us were simply meant to walk a lonely path. I have slept alone for over 20 years. Last time I slept all night with a girlfriend it was 1982. Proof I am a total malfunction. Girls and women don’t even give me a second look ANYWHERE. There is something BLATANTLY wrong with me that NO goddam person will tell me what it is. Every person just wants to be fucking nice and say nice things to me. Flattery. Oh yeah, I am sure you can get a date anytime. You look good, etc. Pussies.
Awwww, wait. I can just start being self-righteous and say I live a good, clean life. I am holy, that’s all Rick Knapp stuff. Hear that you mother fucker: I Am Just Good!

July 23, 2009:


I just looked out my front window and saw a beautiful college-age girl leave Bob Fox’s house, across the street. I guess he got a good lay today. College girls are hoez. I masturbate. Frequently. He is about 45 years old. She was a long haired, hot little hottie with a beautiful bod. I masturbate. Frequently. Some were simply meant to walk a lonely path in life. I don’t usually look out, but just happened to notice. Holy fuck. I have masturbated since age 13. Thanks, mum and brother (by blood alone). And dad, old man, for TOTALLY ignoring me through the years. All of you DEEPLY helped me be this way.

I wish I can go back to 1975 and fix things. Awe, that wont work, big BULLY BROTHER would assert his bull shit. He was twice my size. He never messed with guys bigger than 5′10, or so. He is a PUSSY at heart. Remember, Michael is my brother (we have common parents, that’s all) is still a BOSS. Repetition only for emphasis: HE IS ONLY A BULLY, even at 50ish! Never forget that! Because he exudes confidence. People believe bull shit if delivered WITH CONFIDENCE. Get it??

On the same thought, things occured to me today. Michael NEVER had an attractive girlfriend. Debbie, Barb, Kim, … then I lost track. Not to say I had any (execpt Pam, who was about a 7.25). He married a Chinese-descent, petite woman with no body, no ass, no chest and no personality. She never laughs or smiles, neither does he. But she is highly intelligent and an excellent cook. I can testify to that! She home bakes her own DELICIOUS wheat bread! But who cares about that type of small bull crap? Mike even mentioned when we were visiting dad that “she’s not very attractive”.

I don’t know where I am going with this. I am getting tired, feels good to write and get it all out.

On still another thought, I had 20+ years of sobriety and achieved nothing about friendships, girlfriends, guys, etc. Zilch. What a waste.

Bye, for today.

August 2, 2009:
The biggest problem of all is not having relationships or friends, but not being able to achieve and acquire what I desire in those or many other areas. Everthing stays the same regardless of the effert I put in. If I had control over my life then I would be happier. But for about the past 30 years, I have not

August 3, 2009:
I took off today, Monday, and tomorrow to practice my routine and make sure it is well polished. I need to work out every detail, there is only one shot. Also I need to be completely immersed into something before I can be successful. I haven’t had a drink since Friday at about 2:30. Total effort needed. Tomorrow is the big day.

Unfortunately I talked to my neighbor today, who is very positive and upbeat. I need to remain focused and absorbed COMPLETELY. Last time I tried this, in January, I chickened out. Lets see how this new approach works.

Maybe soon, I will see God and Jesus. At least that is what I was told. Eternal life does NOT depend on works. If it did, we will all be in hell. Christ paid for EVERY sin, so how can I or you be judged BY GOD for a sin when the penalty was ALREADY paid. People judge but that does not matter. I was reading the Bible and The Integrity of God beginning yesterday, because soon I will see them.

I will try not to add anymore entries because this computer clicking distracts me.

Also, any of the “Practice Papers” left on my coffee table I used or the notes in my gym bag can be published freely. I will not be embarased, because, well, I will be dead. Some people like to study that stuff. Maybe all this will shed insight on why some people just cannot make things happen in their life, which can potentially benefit others.

Miscellaneous:1. Probably 99% of the people who know me well don’t even think I was this crazy. Told by at least 100 girls/women over the years I was a “nice guy”. Not kidding.

2. Lee Ann Valdiserri had my baby in early 1991. Haven’t seen her since she was about four months into it. I knew her sister, Chris, from high school.

3. Net worth slightly more than $250K, (after all debt) as of end of 2008.

4. Death Lives!

© 2009 George Sodini
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La Fitness Shootings – Bridgeville, PA

George SodiniSometimes the news hits a little too close to home. That guy on the left there killed three women, himself, and wounded eight or nine other women. This happened not even three miles from my house and in the same shopping plaza that my husband works in. We were coming home from my mother’s house last night and Adam got a call from his boss letting him know what happened. We laid in bed and watched the live feed from KDKA releasing everything as it came out. From the Pittsburgh Post Gazette:

The man police believe shot 12 people at a Collier health club last night kept a log detailing his plans to commit a mass killing there since at least November.

“Why do this?? To young girls? Just read below,” wrote George Sodini, 48, of Scott. “I kept a running log that includes my thoughts and actions, after I saw this project was going to drag on.”

The shooting occurred just after 8 p.m., when the gunman walked into LA Fitness Center in Collier with a duffel bag, turned out the lights in a room where a dance class was going on, then opened fire on the women in the room. Three were dead and at least nine wounded before he turned the gun on himself. Heidi Overmier, 46, of Carnegie, died at the scene at 8:24 p.m. Elizabeth Gannon, 49, of Green Tree, died at the scene at 8:24 p.m. Jody Billingsley, 38, of Mt. Lebanon, died at 8:52 p.m. at St. Clair Hospital.

The log kept by George Sodini shows he planned the shooting for months, and backed out several times. Mr. Sodini, an employee of K&L Gates since 1999, previously worked at Development Dimensions International, located in Bridgeville near the club.

He entered the club with loaded guns on Jan. 6 but didn’t go through with it. “It is 8:45PM: I chickened out!” he wrote. “I brought the loaded guns, everything. Hell!”

The journal also names family members and acquaintances, and expresses rage at many of them, as well as frustration at not being able to connect with women.

On Aug. 3 he wrote: “I took off today, Monday, and tomorrow to practice my routine and make sure it is well polished. I need to work out every detail, there is only one shot. Also I need to be completely immersed into something before I can be successful. I haven’t had a drink since Friday about 2:30. Total effort needed. Tomorrow is the big day.”

The story the victims told was tragically repeated time and again: The man, carrying a gym bag, walked into an exercise room, stood in a corner for about a minute before he turned off the lights.

Then the shooting started, and amid the scene of chaos three women were killed, nine wounded. The shooter apparently then turned the gun on himself. Hospital officials believe the wounded victims will all survive.

Detectives found a note inside the gym bag which had apparently been used to bring two handguns into the facility where the shooter was a member.

Those were some of the emerging details revealed at an early morning press conference by Allegheny County Police Superintendent Charles Moffatt.

Superintendent Moffatt would not disclose the contents of the note but said considering the fact the shooter was carrying guns and the note it was fair to assume he did not expect to leave the facility alive.

In his log, Mr. Sodini wrote: “Also, any of the ‘Practice Papers’ left on my coffee table I used or the notes in my gym bag can be published freely. I will not be embarrassed, because, well, I will be dead.”

Superintendent Moffatt said: “He did what he set out to do. I don’t think anyone could have stopped him, to be honest.”

All of the victims were women, although it was unknown whether the gunman was specifically targeting only women and the superintendent declined to discuss a possible relationship between the shooter and any of the victims.

The wounded were taken to UPMC Mercy, Allegheny General and St. Clair Hospital.

At the early morning press conference Superintendent Moffatt said investigators believe the suspect entered the facility around 8 p.m. using his membership identification card which he swiped at the front door.

“He didn’t say anything. He walked right into the room as if he knew exactly where he was going,” said Superintendent Moffatt.

Police said the shooter may have fired as many as 50 rounds in the 20 foot by 20 foot workout room. The weapons were legally owned and purchased by the shooter, police said.

The shooter killed himself in the same room. His body was found on top of one of the guns, just seven feet away from one victim and 15 feet away from another.

Detectives were working this morning to identify the dead and the wounded, who were being treated at area hospitals.

“As you can imagine, at a fitness club, they don’t have their IDs on them, people don’t know who they are,” he said.

Superintendent Moffatt last night could not comment on the extent of their injuries, as officers had not yet been able to travel to hospitals to check on them.

“The scene was so chaotic we felt it was more important to secure the scene,” he said.

Collier officers were called to the fitness center at 8:16 p.m., and the shooting had already ended. Police said the gunfire was confined to a workout room, where detectives recovered two guns. Police did not disclose what kind of weapons they were.

Three bodies were found inside the exercise the room. They were removed about 12:35 this morning.

Neither Superintendent Moffatt nor Chief Devin could offer a motive for the shooting, saying the investigation was in its infancy.

“I’ve never seen nothing quite like this,” Superintendent Moffatt said.

About 70 people were in the gym at the time the gunman opened fire.

“I couldn’t count the number of shots that were fired right now,” he added, saying detectives were processing the scene to try to determine that.

UPMC Mercy spokeswoman Linda Ross said her hospital received five of the victims — all women with multiple gunshot wounds who initially were in critical condition. Three of the victims were later upgraded to serious condition.

Two other women were being treated at Allegheny General Hospital.

Stacey Falk, 26, of Bridgeville, said she was in an aerobics room with 30 to 40 other women when a short, clean-shaven man, dressed in workout clothes, walked in with a bag. He stood in a corner near a racquetball court for a moment, put the bag down and turned off the lights in the room.

He pulled out a gun and started firing and people began falling to the floor. Ms. Falk said she briefly got a look at what appeared to be a short-barrel rifle.

“Girls were just ducking behind each other. All I could hear were shots and screams,” she said. She was shaking as she recounted the shooting and relatives huddled around her, giving her something warm to ward off the chills.

Among those who were shot was the aerobics class instructor, who had just told her class she was pregnant. The woman was shot in the shoulder.

Ron Michaels, of Collier, a racquetball instructor at the fitness club, said he was in a racquetball court, near the aerobics room, when he heard gunshots.

“I saw these women running out of the aerobics room, hysterical,” he said. He said he heard about 15 shots.

“I think I saw three or four injured people being taken to ambulances after I was out in the parking lot,” he said.

He said the club has been open since last August. “We’ve never had any problems whatsoever. This is unbelievable.”

He said the first floor of the building contains five racquetball courts, a large aerobics room, free weights and weight machines, a swimming pool, and a basketball court. There are treadmills and eliptical machines on a second level.

The scene outside the fitness center was chaotic last evening as dozens of ambulances, police cars and other emergency vehicles converged on the area, some from as far away as Brentwood. They were soon joined by dozens of concerned relatives and friends of people who were inside the club at the time of the shooting.

Tony Williams said his daughter, Melina, 22, told him that she was in the aerobics area “when he came in with a bag and started shooting.” He couldn’t say what kind of weapon the gunman used.

His daughter, he said, was shot in the knee and fell to the floor. A friend helped her to safety.

“She’s going to be OK,” the distraught father said.

Many of those who got out of the gym safely credited the fitness center staff with calmly steering people toward the exits.

After the shooting, scores of those people milled about the parking lot outside the fitness center, which had been taped off and was inaccessible to those who left personal property inside.

Lauren Dooley, 26, was inside the center when the shooting broke out on the first floor. She was on a treadmill, listening to her iPod.

“I saw people flying off the treadmills, hitting the ground” for cover, Ms. Dooley said. “We crawled through the fire escape and I sprinted out the back.”

She said she heard 12 to 15 shots, possibly coming from an aerobics room.

A man who was playing racquetball said the scene inside was total chaos.

“It was panic,” said Perry Calabro, 53, of Bridgeville. “Then we realized it was gunfire. Once the shooting started, everybody started running. ”

He counted about eight shots.

The fitness center is located in the Great Southern Shopping Center, a U-shaped plaza containing dozens of stores, shops and restaurants, including Altmeyer’s the Home Store. Kim Aubele, the store’s associate manager, said the employees were getting ready to close shortly after 8 p.m., when two women ran into the store.

The women were hysterical, screaming for someone to call 911. “At first, I didn’t think they were serious. But then we called and we hid behind the desk.

“They were yelling, ‘hurry up! Hurry up!’ There was a shooting!’ So we locked the door and we called.”

Sean Carroll, of Mt. Lebanon, joined the club yesterday. Last night was to have been his first night to work out there.

“I just registered for this place. I was just pulling up in front when my friend started calling. I thought he was kidding. Then I saw all this,” he said, gesturing to all the commotion. “It’s just scary. You have a public facility like this and who knows what can happen.

“Thank God I played golf today and didn’t come out here earlier to work out.”

Good samaritans came to the rescue of several of the victims, including Jill Mazur, 21, of Upper St. Clair.

Ms. Mazur showed up at 8:15 p. m. to work out with her friend Tracey Smith, 22, of Oakdale.

Moments after she stepped through the door, people started sprinting past her and a man grabbed her by the arm and whisked her into the parking lot.

“Strangers dragged people out,” Ms. Mazur said. A man she knew only as Don took her to his car while her friends piled into a car with almost a half-dozen others.

“Everyone’s keys were in there, locked up,” Ms. Mazur said. “People were trying to get as far away from the building as they could. They didn’t know if the guy was going to come out.”

Ms. Mazur and Ms. Smith work out like clockwork at 8 p.m. on weeknights in the weights area across from the aerobics room where the shootings occurred.

“For some really strange reason, we made it 8:15 tonight,” Ms. Mazur said.

Allegheny County Executive Dan Onorato is vacationing out of town, but issued a statement last night about the shooting.

“Tonight, an unspeakable tragedy occurred in Collier Township. Our sincere condolences go out to the families of the victims, and we pray for the recovery of those who were injured. The Allegheny County police and Medical Examiner are on scene and investigating this incident. I have made the full resources of the Allegheny County government available to assist with this catastrophe. The county police will provide updates as information becomes available. I ask everyone to keep those affected by this tragic event in their thoughts and prayers.”

A spokesman for K&L Gates confirmed that Mr. Sodini worked there since 1999. He was a systems analyst in the finance department. The spokesman confirmed that Andrew Pulkowski, whom Sodini writes about in the blog, is director of planning and development. The company released this statement: “K&L Gates is deeply saddened by last night’s events, and offers its condolences to the families and friends of all who were involved in this terrible tragedy.”

Mr. Sodini previously worked at Development Dimensions International in Bridgeville. A spokeswoman said: “George Sodini did contract work for DDI, but has not worked here in more than 10 years. DDI is sorry for the losses of the individuals and the families involved in last night’s violent act.”

Gov. Ed Rendell called it “another senseless shooting and a tragic shooting. It’s a case where someone who clearly shouldn’t have had a firearm because of mental problems had a firearm. This guy had severe mental problems. He had a deep abiding hatred of women.

What the hell? Seriously? This guy felt the need to kill three innocent people and hurt numerous others because of some pussy? I never knew vaginas had supernatural powers. It’s kind of a shame, he wasn’t a bad looking guy, but I guess if you’re a homicidal psycho, chicks may not want to date you. Who knew?

It’s a senseless act of violence. Three women died because this guy didn’t have the initiative to improve his own life. Three women died because of this bastard’s cowardice. At a goddamn gym of all places. You come home from work, go to get your workout on and bam, you’re the victim of some sad, pathetic loser, taking out his sexual frustration on strangers.

So where else are people like him going to decide it’s okay to shoot up? Grocery stores? Shopping malls? Doctor’s offices for christ’s sakes? It’s sickening. And I am so very thankful that the people I do know who go there are safe and unharmed.

And apparently, the idiot fucking blogged about it. BLOGGED ABOUT IT! The site’s been down all morning…it will probably never be back up, but damn. What the hell is wrong with people!? >.<

For more information:
Pittsburgh Post Gazette
Pittsburgh Live

Some ACTUAL News, Please?

Saddam & JacksonBetween last night’s news and this morning’s, I have finally reached the limit on how often I can hear about Michael Jackson.

For fuck’s sake people, there is actual news occurring everyday and we’re missing it for what? A half-plastic, drug-addicted dead man.

Things that were pushed off of the NEWS, not the Today Show or Dateline, the regular fucking news:

1. The Iranian Election. Iranian oppIranian Riotsosition leaders have called for  the release of  people detained during the post-election protests. A “strongly-worded” statement on the Ghalamnews website has expressed their criticism of “attacks against innocent people, dormitories, and houses… and some shocking brutalities carried out by plainclothes forces supported by security forces” and also referred to the deaths of protesters “whose only crime was to object to the election fraud… at spontaneous several-million-strong demonstrations held in extraordinary peace and order. If their rights had been slightly respected or if the people had not been lied to or disrespected, the situation would have never turned to a national crisis.” They have called for an end to the security-state of Iran, let’s see who answers.

North Korea Missile Launch2. North Korea. Even after the UN Security Council condemned North Korea for the nuclear test explosion on May 25, 2009, and demanded that North Korea not “conduct any further nuclear test or any launch using ballistic missile technology,” the Pyongyang government launched SEVEN missiles on July 4, 2009. On Monday, the UN Security Council has a closed-door meeting that quite frankly, no one seems to know anything about. MAYBE IF IT WAS COVERED ON THE NEWS!?

3. Chinese Riots. China’s worst ethnic violence in years has been Chinese Riots going on since Sunday and who would’ve known!? More than 140 people are already dead with over 800 injured as Chinese riot police and Uighurs (a Muslim minority) clash in the streets of Urumqi. The Urumqi women have been rioting in the streets to save their husbands who have been arrested, beaten, abused, and tortured.

Everyday, we have people fighting, literally fighting to the death for simple rights, and here we are glued to our television sets because a pop-star died. It’s goddamn ridiculous.

On a completely unrelated note, please remember that you can still Vote NO on the Miami Seaquarium! You can vote once per day, so keep ’em comin’!